Sent: 12/4/2002 1:40 PM
because a 30 year old man
cannot dress himself sensibly
his mother's necessity
was to clothe him in JCPenny's
for what would the family at Thanksgiving dinner think
seeing her son in self-appointed rags
down to the holes in the shoes on his feet
at first he refused adamantly
against this betrayal against self
but in caring for his tearful mother
he relinquished Thanksgiving day selfless
adorned a new red ribbed cranberry sweater
over a white buttoned cotton shirt
pressed corduroys in khaki he modeled
in her ideal form of appearanced worth
he gave in, gave up, forgot who he was
being something else than he really is
was the image that he doesn't have any desire to be
but thinking it's just one day, Thanksgiving day
just for one day Real he wouldn't be
yes, it was for just one day
for his mom and his dad, for his family
dressed in dressing smiles
his cousin bounded towards him with boy in tow
her boyfriend, she introduced them,
and then said words that made him his own foe
so this is my cousin, my cousin in New York City
the one that gave me my style
see can't you see he's materialistic like me
immediately his mouth filled with bile
that one day he needed to truly be him
and show how he's changed was the day he was muted
and words would not be able to express the witness
that his mother's desired appearance silenced
no, he did not love properly
for in not loving himself enough to challenge the love of others
he perpetuated the lie that he had lived long before
and actually volunteered its stutter
be yourself always
lesson learned
