FLIGHT : Party blues

Sent: 7/24/2002 8:43 PM

When I was in fourth grade, my best friend, Grant, and I had a summer swimming birthday party together. His birthday was in the beginning of July and mine at the end of June. We were gleeful at the opportunity to share a day together. As we chased each other around the pool in party hats, we laughed and joked and had a wonderful time. Unfortunate for me, the wonderful time ended when only a few of our friends showed up for the party. Why did that disappointment overshadow the good time I was already having?

FLIGHT : some & others

Sent: 7/24/2002 7:26 PM


i've felt the pain of the world the last month
something new around every corner

some surprises
others packages that should have been opened sooner

some were my own
others were for his and hers and theirs as he and she and they also suffered around me

some that I caused
others that I tried to soothe

some were personal
others were global

in and out of the days of this month
there was some new pain around every corner

i see now

they were all growing pains

cliche or just right on the mark?

Thank You.

xoxo
Love

FLIGHT : Revival

Sent: 7/17/2002 11:35 PM

It's been a long time since I've been to a good ole-fashioned revival and tonight, I was blessed with one at the Trinity Baptist Church in the Bronx. Riverside's Dr. James Forbes Jr. was speaking.

The last time I felt the Spirit coolly raise the hairs on the back of my head was when I was eleven years old and first accepted Jesus Christ as my Savoir. I was so overcome with Joy to feel that physical closeness again, now as an adult. Tingling sensations throughout my body, as tears flooded my warm cheeks.

Thank you God.

Today, as I was walking out of work, a puff from a cotton tree floated down the sidewalk just in front of me. I wondered if it was playing, taunting, saying, "Tee-hee! All you have to do is catch me, and then the words will come again, Chad!"

I couldn't resist but run after it, my arm outstretched following closely behind. Alas, it scurried ahead of me, before a moment it paused. Now I've got you. But just as I put my hand out to grab it, the wind whisked it up and away and out of sight. I laughed loudly.

Thank you God.

"Not yet. But soon."

FLIGHT : Wait

Sent: 7/8/2002 8:56 PM

Sometimes the words are hard to find, as is the case of late. There has been a blizzard to write about, and yet the words to express these awakenings hover above like puffs from the cotton trees, just beyond my grasp. I sit here impatiently typing the only words I know, which are merely my try at poetically saying "I just don't know." Ironic.

Nevertheless, I'm afraid it is the state I am in just now. I keep watching the clouds, waiting for the break.

Oh God, hear me, as I wait for You.

FLIGHT : Did you hear?

Sent: 7/5/2002 3:31 PM

Did you hear that the United States is threatening to pull out of United Nations' peace talks (I repeat, PEACE TALKS), unless it is given complete sovereignty as the U.S. does not recognize any courts but its own? Will we truly be killed by arrogant U.S. supremacy? I sometimes wonder.

=(

I am actually quite disgusted that the rest of the world gave in to the United States and granted it sovereignty and exemption from war crimes for the next year in order to keep the United States involved in the United Nations Peace Talks. I am even more disgusted that the United States demanded such. I am appalled and outraged at my country for exerting and abusing such power. Honestly, never before have I been LESS proud to be an American.

What happened to the U.S.A. that I loved and believed in? The U.S.A. founded on beautiful principals and integrity.

FLIGHT : Feeling my wrath at Verizon Corporation

Sent: 7/1/2002 12:30 PM

Ugh. I hardly know what to say, except 'Ugh'.

After admitting to me that he was basically a trained monkey behind a desk, Verizon's service technician showed no sight beyond his specific money making device and the status quo therein. When questioned as to his responsibility for my issue, he fell behind policy and beauracracy that, he said, he had no power to fight. He was acutally quite apathetic. And once my name was off his computer screen, he'd be happy again.

Funny how the rooster pecks on that keyboard. Is it really music?

From Thursday to today, Monday, I have had no phone service. Verizon has been helpful only in providing glimmers of hope that it will be repaired. Unfortunately, it's not. I am angered by this complete disregard for me. I am annoyed that their promises are empty and that the only justification they arm themselves is policy.

Policy is not providing very good customer service.

Yes, all of this makes me want to leave Verizon altogether. But monopoly is a different entry.

=(